44:07.336N 18:51.652W

SV Eleonora
Michael A. Andronov
Sun 8 Jul 2018 09:55
UTC & local  time -- 0956...
3201.3 nm behind...  from Antigua.  Ok, I remember from where,  that is a start...
659.3 nm to.... Hmm.,  that is harder... 659 nm to where, actually ?  No,  I do  not know...  I'll wait for the coffee -- which is brewing -- for this one...  But computer should know, it is smart...  But why it  is showing me now that tomorrow is the Nunavut Day?  Where are we ? Is it kind of a joke or  or kind of a message ? Anyway, tomorrow is another holiday, and we are going to celebrate.
 
Light grey water suspense all around the boat on top...  Dark grey, completely still water below...   No, it is not even the fog...   It is  a water buble...
 
Yesterday, I thought we were becalmed...  I thougt that the calmest ocean I seen -- was December 10, 2016... on the way from Norfolk to BVI... I was wrong.   Now -- we are...  We are beating the records -- the most wet deck,  the most wet sails,  the most flat Ocean, the most still water... 
 
The weather and conditions brought me back in my childhood... Summer... country house... rain, rain, rain... We are sitting with my syster and plaing ship battle... 
'-- you ship is at A3...
 -- Missed,   your ship is at E4...
 -- Wounded...
....
'
Today we grew up...  I'm sitting in the middle of the nowhere,  with no even horizon line around...  And plaing similar game, but with the mother nature ...
" -- the wind is at 43:05N 19:00 W...
  -- missed...
  -- the wind is at  44:06N 19:05W...
 -- missed...
"
In my chilrdhood, the round of the game took usually  15-20 minutes...  If that time also scalled to the degree as everything else...
Well, then I can be there for a while...  Unless, I win... At then -- the sails will fly higl again,  the water flow under the boat will start to tell its story...
 
It is perfect time to grab some coffee, make a dry spot in the cockpit, and to ask yourself the question  -- ' Who are you? What would you like to do? '  No, the answers like ' ... Policemen,  doctor, computer engineer,  lawer... '  -- not going to fly...  Naturally... Because you look around -- and you would feel how obvious it is that in NORMAL LIFE  you do not need  policmen, doctor (God forbid...),  computer engineer, and the lawer...    You tried a bit harder... and decided to switch  to the second question... ' Shopping, walking,  gym,  cycling,  snow removal,   car tires change... '   No, not working either...     Suddenly,  the final scene from ' Analyse this' with Bill Crystal and Robert Deniro appeared in my mind...
" ... (  the Doc  -- Bill Crystal -- making his speech during the gang meeting... )
  -- Who am I ?  Or What am I ?   If you are asking -- 'What am I ?' -- it is an interesting question! ...
  ...  (  don Vitto -- Robert Deniro --  appears in the room... )
  --  Thank you, Doc... I'll take it from here!... 
"
The coffee is getting cold... The fog  around is changing its colour a bit... ( probably the Sun... )...  It is so alarming and so peaceful at the same time...   It may be nice, if my  ' don Vitto' would suddenly appears from that fog, and say  ' Thanks, Cap!  I'll take it  from here...' ,  my endless answering stops,  and a new day would begin!
 
Till next time,
M.