Indecision
avanti
Eleanor Tims, aka Ryllis Tims
Fri 30 Nov 2007 09:58
Well, as you know, we set off on November 11th with
such high hopes of a successful voyage, but as this blog relates, it has
come to an untimely halt, and with Christmas fast approaching, my crew are
naturally having doubts that we would reach the Canaries in time for them to get
home for the festive season - if, indeed, they could even buy an air-ticket
then.
And it's not just Christmas which is fast
approaching. There's a lot of dirty weather out there in the North
Atlantic, heading this way, which will cause further delays, and, inevitably, no
way of foretelling whether better weather lies behind it.
So I am now looking at what I had hoped definitely
not to do, and that is to stay put in the UK until about April. I do have
a delivery skipper offering to assist, but even with his great
expertise the above still apply: the weather and Christmas. I have to
make my mind up within the coming day or two, and I can tell you, it's a bitter
pill to swallow. An expensive 'pill' too. Also, family and friends
are piling on the pressure to give the whole venture up, to sell Avanti, but I
have spent the last seven years preparing her for this voyage, and I am not
ready yet to give up the sailing life. I know I could rent an apartment
somewhere in the sun; but how attractive is that, compared to living on a
boat? Doesn't register on my scale, not yet. Doubt it ever
would.
If you detect a whiff of depression, doubt,
uncertainty and so on, you're right! But I will keep you posted as to what
decision I come to. There doesn't seem to be an obvious right one: to stay
would be expensive (and demoralising); to go could be dangerous. Keep your
fingers crossed I do find a right solution.
Eleanor
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